verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 14

In the bay. i never understood why some people don't want to make choices, however not making a choice is also making a choice. Communication is key in any friendship, relationship, etc . however if if you don't communicate with a person its not gonna work. I always try to see the upside in a situations but however, I'm leary about this. I will still look at the bright side but for right now i have to focus on what is more important: My company and my future. people say i should just give it up on it, why fight for something that one person wants and the other doesn't. Or doesn't know what they want.

Pros and Cons

Pros

caring
compassionate
loving
driven
conversation
educated
family oriented
potential
when we were together we were in sync
maturity level




Cons

too private
doesnt trust easily
he says the timing
when we are part the distance kills us
age difference
maturity level
Distance in miles
not on the same path
won't commit



I dont have expectations for anything anymore.

.............................

Furious Thoughts 2! LMAOOOOOOOOO

i have insomnia

anyone who knows me, knows i have extreme insomnia . this describes my nights.

Still looking for Mitrice Richardson

This is so sad.

MIA Born Free

M.I.A, Born Free from ROMAIN-GAVRAS on Vimeo.

i gave up on this topic.

Ciara f Ludacris- Ride

This Broad is my gym motivation.

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 12

Nothing is static. Everything will fall apart.

I'm breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions, because only thru destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit.

Chuck Palahniuk "Fight Club"

RIP Selena

March 31 was the 15th anniversary of Selena Perez's death.

this is about to be some shit....

VH1 TV Shows | Music Videos | Celebrity Photos | News & Gossip

---- but ima still watch this because these broads are lowkey crazy

T.I - Why You Wanna

T.I. - Why U Wanna

window seat parody

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 11

he who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he’s not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he’s showing up at your new residence to do it in person … if he’s not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he’s just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it’s like to live without you.

Erykah Badu gives advice on the industry...

rocker liker her daddy

the supreme mixed child, Zoe Kravitz, is following in her fathers foot steps. what do u think?

Massive Attack - Nicki Minaj

i have a love hate relationship with this bitch. The video is hot. the song is alright. SHE LOOKS BOMB In the green hair. No HOMO. She should thank Lil Kim and Trina for paving her way. thats all.

Fly Guys - Miss You Money

With that said...... I have $2.84 in my bank account. i feel this song.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYY

Why Black People... WHyyyyyyyyyyyyYYYYY!



got the pic from KID FURY this guy here is hilarious.

KidFury.... Commentary on Kat Stacks

This nigga is gettin on herrrrrrr line!!!!!!!!! I am in here cryinggggggggg.

in case you don't know what he is talking about ... here is this Kat Stacks Chick talking

Erykah Badu vs. FAUX

Dear FAUX and the rural, conservative Americans
shut the fuck up. NEKKID ASS PEOPLE walk down in SF in front of kids, as long as she wasnt sucking no ones dick, trying to turn tricks and playing with herself. Don't you look at yourself naked? Wasn't your child naked? The video is art because she was metaphorically killing herself because of the conformative ideas of people like you. GROUPTHINK. Thats why she pick the place JFK was assasinated.

Toni Braxton- Love Shoulda Brought You Home

Shawn Chrys- No Snitchin

KId CuDi- Soundtrack 2 My Life

DatNewCudi.com: KiD CuDi - Soundtrack 2 My Life (Directed by Jason Goldwatch) from DatNewCudi / DP on Vimeo.

I relate to this song so much....

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 10

Doubt Frustration Doubt Stress Life Doubt Doubt SEX no LOVE Doubt Crazy Courage

New Madelife - Amazing

CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD

We Are The World >>>>> Part 3

Young Artist for Haiti- Waving Our Flag

poetry

My Space - Shannon Matesky

Lady Gaga F/ Beyonce- Telephone

I love Lady Gaga and her.... welll gaganess.. AND THEY GOT THE PUSSYWAGON FROM KILL BILL!!!!!!!!!!

Johnny Craig- Cry Me A River (JT cover)

J. Cole X Jay- Z- Everyday a Star is Born

To me this is the hottest high yella negro in the game. Drake is alright, but J. Cole is coming for that ass.

Damani f/ Snoop - Here Comes Damani

B.o.B - Nothing on you

U-N-I f/ Miguel - Lately

the BEST side eye EVERRRR!!!

HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!

WTF......

isabella rosselini, who is a supermodel is featured in this video.

SNL IS SO WRONG! LMAO

MIA vs Rihanna

I've been meaning to do this but whoooooooooooo did it better? both videos are directed by Melina .





i personally like both for different reason. I want MIA to come out with a new album asap!

Yo Default Pics Be Lyin

this reminds me of toney and kern,.... LMAOOOOOOO



-- im mad that he gets off in the video too... smh

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 9

its sad when all of ur innocence dies and u notice it. -me

is this what the US is doing with our taxes?

LMAO,....

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 8

i had a great birthday week. i have to remember that now as a 23 yr old, i have to remember to be a mature adult be myself. sometimes im a lil emotional. i cant help it. i just have to remember to focus on what's important in life which is fucking dudes. money, hoes and clothes, what people think, a boyfriend being happy and being me. .... and getting a job if people don't like it fuck them.

Boondocks -May 2nd

I Cant Wait!

Chile Earthquake

Throwback: In Living Color Clips

Men On Film



Homey D. Clown



Wanda



Calhoun Tubbs




Fire Marshall Bill



Ms. Benita

Tay f 3rd and Mario C

Inglewood - El Prez and Shawn Chrys

El Prez - "Inglewood" ft Shawn Chrystopher and Polyester from El Prez on Vimeo.

Tyrese On Cheating

He has some points, but still ... really. Cuz if a girl were to cheat on a her dude, her boyfriend would have a bitch fit, because its about loyalty, not emotions.

Mike Tyson on Dancing with the Stars - Italy

NOW HE KNOWS THIS IS TOOO FUNNY!

Pretty Girls - Wale f/ Gucci Mane

Untitled from Makavelliott1971 on Vimeo.

Just cuz New Orleans won... Young Bleed , B.G, TRU, Mystikal, Lil Wayne and Sissy Nobby

HAHAHAHAH Hoody HOOOOOOO!







Sissy Nobby- Put an Arch In Yo Back .... (bounce music)



And because this is one of my favorite wayne songs.... and earthquake has no video......

Kendrick Lamar - She Needs Me and I am

I love his EP. The video is beautifully done and edit.

CLICK HERE TO LISTEN

All i Have to say is.....

WHO DATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT !!!! Laissez Les Bon Temps Roulez !!!!!!!!

Congratulations New Orleans Saints! Your city needed this!

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 7

its funny how life can change in a moment so drastically, and what a difference a year can make.
last year and some change i thought my life was made. im blessed but i see that my life isnt made. life changes.
i thought i was going to be engaged at this time, two years ago, now i don't give a fuck about relationships anymore. i dont see them in my near future unless someone proves me wrong, so far most people have proved me right. no im not bitter about it, i dont want to be that black woman that hates all of mankind because one (or several) men burned her. i just realized being in a serious boyfriend/girlfriend relationship isnt for me at the moment. i have a grind to get on.

Nneka- Heartbeat and Africans

5 women 10 Vaginas....

Wow... They are like koalas.... im in awe, but uhhhhhh...

Cain Mosni- 2010 til Infinity

2010 Til Infinity from Cain Mosni on Vimeo.

Skeme - You Already Know

Take a gander. He has been steadily on his grind. He is gonna make it.


Skeme: You Already Know - Click Here

Faith Evans - "Again" and "I Love You"

Hey Daddy (Daddy's Home)

im so glad his fine ass is back to the suave dude he use to be... might be even better....

Throwback- The Roots "What They Do"

NINA SKY- Beautiful People

i love the concept of this video. Many people, including myself, need to listen to the message of this song. i plan to for my whole 2010.

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 6

i keep having dreams of my teeth falling out.

Several Meanings

1.Being Embarrasses
2. Anxiety about personal appearance
3. Putting your faith in man instead of your faith
4. Being too vulnerable/ Weakness
5. Verbal behavior
6. Public Image


i think it might be time for me to go to the dentist. .... idk

wowwwwwwwww

i thought that if you were creole, you had black/ African descent in you, Monica? it doesn't matter because if you have an ounce of black in you in the US, you are considered black.

Dealing.

Sue Me from Guys and Dolls

Vivian Blaine and Frank Sinatra as Adelaide and Nathan from the musical Guys and Dolls.

I could honestly relate to Adelaide.

cudi

KiD CuDi "cudderisback" - Directed by Jason Goldwatch from DP on Vimeo.

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 5

I hate when people talk and ask questions during a movie, that you are watching just like me.



Working in the arts and entertainment I feel that people don't respect my opinion. At times I want to give up .... Its not in my vocabulary, but I am fighting to get in the industry. This shit here is tough.since I have been home I have been going through it.I am doing somewhat better.sometimes, I don't think anyone cares. LA is a hard place to try to rebuild your life, when you have been gone for 4 years. I don't expect everything just to stay the same, because that's not how life works. Life moves on, and so do your friends.its like I came home and I'm non-existent.I have done a lot of amazing things in life, I thank God for it.I just do not know what to do to fix this funk that I am in.I'm trying to stay focus, and find some happiness during my stay or life here.Life after of college is difficult.Hell, life is very difficult and complicated in itself.I can't find a job period, and got laid off,twice.I have no money to start my own projects.It's frustrating.Most of my friends got jobs, right out of college. I know I'm not them. and God gives graciously to those who wait, he also gives to those who help themselves. I have been praying for my spirit, my mental well being and my life. Sometimes I think prayer isn't helping me, even though I do need jesus. I need some type of help, some type of guidance. I often wonder if I am delusional... Some type of crazy... Ehh

Gnarls Barkley- Who's Gonna Save My Soul Now

how i feel toward relationships right now.

Lift Me Up- Christina Aguilera

Whats up with you and Black Guys? - George Lopez

We honestly all want to know. I love these broads though.

BONUS- Kim and Khloe on Wendy

Florida Representative Butchers the Fuck out of y Wyclef Jean's Name

106 KMEL History

I miss these people. Alot of people dont know that many of the shows and programming that other radio stations have were formated from KMEL;s.

Rihanna Performs Redemption Song for Haiti on Oprah

i could make a rih rih joke, but i won't. she is for the cause. bob marley wants his song back though...

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 4

im not popular, i dont care
i have my friends thats all that matters
im eccentric and boring at the same time
people may think that i am nice or i am a bitch
at least i'm on your mind, you're creating my persona
without taking the time out to know me, i know myself
gossip just only begets more gossip, negativity consumes
people who are doing shit, that could be doing shit but too
busy consumes with trying to be seen, i wish that there was a
such thing as a utopic world, but it seems as the world is getting
worse. evil thoughts reside in the nicest of minds because it it human
nature. people say people hate but sometimes haters often speak the truth
other times its jealousy in the form of verbal vomit, and the intentions of the
cruel trying to effect you. dream killers come in the form of family, strangers,
friends and yourself. however certain situations happen to make you stronger
others happened to make you wiser, if you pay attention most of the time you get your answer.........

New Nipsey Hussle!

DOWNLOAD IT HERE

The Clipse- Freedom

The video goes hard. Its a work of art

How Low- Ludacris

Erk Tha Jerk- Right Here The Official Video

Erk Tha Jerk "Right Here" from Rob Witt on Vimeo.

I had the pleasure of meeting him during my time at 106 KMEL. He is an awesome spirit and performer.

Granny Likes this song.

Video Directed by - TAJ

Haitian Relief Effort Concert TOMORROW IN LA

verbal vomit/ stream of consciousness part 3

During the last sixteen day of the new year and i have already learned a lot . Some people are in your life for seasons, some are for a lifetime, then others are somewhat like a leap year, they show up every once and a while. From going through a situation, which i have been and still am traumatized from to some typical as school yard bullshit, i have learned that you shouldn't run away from certain situations, which is what i tend to do. I don't like dealing with stressful situations because i tend to focus on it . i tend to get myself into these situations because i either i sympathize for a person, or i just act without thinking . I am an emotional creature. Sure i need to think, but in the heat of the moment , your not thinking about that. As a 22 year old woman that is my biggest vice. More then road rage, more than getting "attached" or anything else. I am a very nice person but i also have a tendency to be the most evil bitch you would ever meet. Its funny how fast you can be off a person when they screw you over or how sometimes the fake people tend to leave you high and dry when you have gone to shit. At times the real in your life won't even be there for you because you all ready screwed them over. It leaves you alone and to yourself. Being mean leave you a lone and to yourself, most of all being alone, leaves you alone and yourself. People wonder about you when they don't see you. but most of the time its out of sight , out of mind.

RIP Aaliyah Dana Haughton

I loved Aaliyah as an artist, She was so poised...

Haitian Relief Effort - The people how need some media attention

Pat Robertson HOW THE HELL would you know about the pact with the devil that happened 300+ years ago? HO HAVE A SEAT with your crazy old ass because thats some shit. Even if you were alive at that time, you wouldn't have been in Haiti? SMH

Rush - i smh at you.

COMEDY

Throwback- Ryan Leslie Interview of 1994

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This proves that hardwork and faith does pay off.... Very Well


Click Here to download Ryan Leslie- GibberishRyan Leslie- Promise Not 2 Call U

R.I.P. Teddy Pendergrass

Thanks for the bedroom music sir






CLICK HERE TO VIEW TEDDY PENDERGRASS SAMPLES

Haitian Relief Effort

Please help Haiti. This is an awful awful tragedy. Im making care packages as i type this blog

MasterCard Waives Fees on US Donations to Haitian Aid Efforts

American Airlines will transport any doctor or nurse to Haiti free of charge, call +1 212-697-9767

Please text YELE to 501 501 right now! $5 will be donated to Earthquake Relief

You can text "HAITI" to 90999 to donate $10 to Red Cross

UPS IS SHIPPING TO HAITI FOR FREE 2MORROW UNDER 50 lbs. Clothing and food drives at all United Way and Salvation Army.

For More Information, Please look at:

www.yele.org

www.redcross.org

MIA- There's a space ol dat I see"

KELIS's Letter to PETA

Good morning all!

Ok, so you’re gonna love this. The other day I got a personalized letter from PETA! Lol so after some thought I've decided to write one back. Goes a little something like this:

There is no humane way to kill anything, let me start there. It’s unfortunate but it’s part of life. With that being said, I would eat pterodactyl if you found some and you told me it was meaty and delicious. And after doing a very minimal amount of research....... I found out that the founder Ingrid Newkirk is completely batty. I had a feeling but she far exceeded my expectations. I mean certifiably insane! Lol this chicks will is nuts, google it – it’s a riot! Beyond the fact that I think she's a diabetic, which means she needs insulin, which is taken from lab pigs (I know this because my sister happens to be in veterinary school), which would be completely hypocritical. It’s like don't abuse animals unless it can help me.

I feel very strongly about a lot of things such as the sweatshops that spin cotton and the blood on their hands. Btw it’s not just the look of fur. It’s warm as hell and feels glorious, ever rubbed faux fur on your body? Nothing luxurious about that. Then the letter proceeded to name artist and designers who don't wear real fur. Great! More for me! I don't judge them, don't judge me.

If I started wearing endangered animals like polar bear or orangutan then talk to me. (Which btw for the record I would not - I do believe in the preservation of endangered species) But the minks and chinchilla that quite honestly are rodents and if weren't in the form of a coat I would demand they be put to death anyway are not an issue to me.

The death of high fashion. Ugh.

I eat meat, and in fact my mouth salivates as I type the word meat! And the paint throwing that's just ridiculous! What if I was hurling Loubitons and Pierre Hardy's at every sad poorly dressed person on the street? As right as I may be it’s just fanatical and crazy. And people have the right to feel as they please. What about art? Survival of the fittest. Natural selection? No let's just let all the rodents run free and over take our cities. Oh wait they have, NY and LA in particular are infested! Why don't u save them all from scavenging on the streets and ruining my evening strolls, take them home. Make them pets! Get off my back! Pun intended!

Underpaid minorities picking your vegetables, now that's fine for you right? Please, fight for their rights. How about the poverty in the communities of brown people around the world. She had the nerve to say (and I quote) "get over it" talking of the issue of black people and slavery in this country verses cows being slaughtered. Is she kidding me? Lol yes she must be. Actually, she's lucky most black people have real issues to worry about in the U.S and don't give a crap what her delusional privileged opinions are. But she should try saying that again just for kicks n giggles on the corner of Adam Clayton Powell Blvd in Harlem n see how well people "get over it" lol.

If u want to preach do it about something worthwhile don't waste my time trying to save the dang chipmunk.

Find a worthwhile cause like the women being maimed in these Middle Eastern countries. Or female circumcision. Or women's rights here in America, we still get paid less for doing the same jobs as men. Quite honestly if you hate the world so much go live in the forest where no one else has to hear you complain about the perfectly good food chain the good Lord created. Everyone has the right to an opinion, and that's mine on that! xoxo

A BADDER ROMANCE

i love it. its creative. i miss filming stuff. thinking about starting back.

Fefe Dobson - Pepper Spray

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click here to download: fefe dobson- pepper spray

YRF

Saw these guys perform twice . They have amazing stage presence. They're pretty awesome. Click the links below to download their music. ill keep you updated on shows.

D.I.T.M.S.- YRF
FLY IN MY SUPRAS- YRF

Fitted and Fedoras

pretty dope mixtape. my faves are number 4 and 9.





CLICK HERE TO LISTEN

NEW TRINAAAAAAA

Her album is about to be fire. i cant wait.....


CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD: LET THEM HOES FIGHT - TRINA FEAT. LADY GAGA

Keke Wyatt- Who Know

She's BACKKK!!
People probably dont remember Keke Wyatt. She was featured on some songs with Avant, wayyyy back in 2002. Then got busted for stabbing someone in the head. Im not in to the love thing at the moment. Its a nice song though.

untitled.

God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
The courage to change the things that I can;
And the wisdom to know the difference.


Thank you for those being there in my time of need. I love my best friends and family for taking time out of their day to check on me during my time of need. I don't want you to feel disrespected or be upset at my decision: its my decision. One that i have to deal with for the rest of my life, and the other party that is involved. This is a personal matter and it will be handled accordingly. I hope you guys respect my decision and understand that i am doing this for me and i am comfortable with it . Sometimes there is more to life than revenge or punishment. Sure my decision might make me look weak, but i know i am strong and i did it to settle my mind and spirit. Maybe its not the proper one, maybe i have a problem. It wont happen again to me, and it had changed my view on things in general. It takes a lot to go through legalities and illegalities. However, it takes more to forgive. Being from a home where one parent practice Buddhism and the other one Christianity, i feel that i may have done the right decision. This is a hard time and it too shall pass. God never puts more on me than i can bare. i dont have any malice in my heart toward this person. if i am not social, or i make myself unavailable to contact, its because i am taking the necessary precautions to fix me. i don't want to be a victim and this incident shows me that i should trust my gut, and know that you NEVER know what can happened.

Im Super Bad.. You want some of my McLovin...

My favorite ex Crime Mob member released a new video!!



but i KNOW that i heard this song come out before....




i love Diamond and all, but i prefer the Sophia Fresh version.... I wonder whatever happened to them.