rya is on fire....: 2009

Today is the last day of 2009, and i can say that i have learned alot about myself this year. Granted i have messed up a couple of times but i now learned that A) DO ME, because thats the only thing i know best. B) Dont put no dude on a pedestal. duh C) some people are only in your life for seasons, and some friendships are a lifetime. just cuz i dont talk to you everyday, doesn't mean i dont love or care bout you. D) People take shit for granted but when its gone they hella miss it. E ) Have tough skin -----my 106kmel family taught me well. I think God i have lifelong friends and mentors F) granny said "stop talking to these wack ass niggas who aint bout shit" ima finally listen to her because she is right. i need to find a "down" man, DONT BE CLINGY.... H) breaking in to a van in SF can provide heat at night (don't ask) I ) sometimes u have to do things you dont want to in order to do things that are good for you. J ) dont wait hand and foot on a person when they treat you like dog shit, K ) you dont have to go bad on everyone, everyone is not against, but still study a person"s character. ...... L ) If you see a nigga that u dont wanna talk to. a dude try to grab you in the club, dont smile , MOVE YOUR FEETS .. M) whatever you do, whereever you are, dont complain, HAVE FUN

I consider this year and this decade the biggest growth in my life. I have experienced a lot of trials and tribulation. My New Years Resolution for this year is to keep focusing on me. Keep following my dreams.

i feel this. sometimes i feel as if im that back pocket girl, but hey, im only 22.

I love to see people i knew back in the day doing big day. SUPPORT THE NEW WEST MOVEMENT!

This is Sean Combs's daughter Chance, singing Rudolph The Red Nose Reindeer. She kinda switches the song in the middle of te video because she forgets the words. LOL. She is adorable.

Saw him last night with KiD CuDi ... He was BOMB.

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Lady Gaga looks like a Jingle Bell

these heffas tried out for that show sing off on nbc. LMFAOOOOOOOOOO

WORD OF ADVICE ::::::::::::: I DONT DO DRAMA ::::::::::::::..... anymore. i never really understood the necessity of he say she say - middle man drama. Its not my steez. i'll give advice. I don't mind giving advice. However, don't involve me when i speak on the other person at all. Don't lie on me. I stay distant from people because I dont like messy stuff like that. I dont like being draggggggggggged in to other people's personal drama. People really need to learn how to do themselves. When you focus on yourself and the things you need to do you wont be concerned with petty bullshit. i personally dont concern myself with it because of the fact that i put ALL OF my energy into everything that i do, no matter what it is. if this was 14months ago, i would have honored this, and let it affect me, but its not. through out this year i have learned to focus on myself and other things to get me and the people that i love and want to succeed ahead. I have toldddddd people things i think they should do, because people have tolddddd and suggested things that i can do to fix myself as a person. I have taken some advice and thrown some advice to trash. I have learned through personal experiences that people dont want to be around others with hella drama. things do happened that are beyond your own personal control. Things that are in your personal control, you have to fix. communication is key in ANYTYPE OF RELATIONSHIP, FRIENDSHIP ETC. Stressing dumb shit isn't cute.

i may not like the song, but i like the video

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. they are dead serious.

This reminded me of a story that my friend Jeanet told me about when she lived in China. However, this is different.

That is a good question. Who is gonna step up for the west?

Madelife has been going at it for a minute. I decided to feature them on my blog . This song is for all my blazers out there.

Download: Dolla Bill, K- Diezel and Almighty- Blowing My Smoke Here

* chasing the cool.... naw bitch, we are the inspiration.

i love these girls. i'm proud of them.

Popbytes interviews Kelis! from Popbytes on Vimeo.

found on popbytes.com

Anyone who knows me, knows i secretly love kelis. Ever since Caught out there. I find her a true artist, and very eccentric person.

I can't wait to get this new album. I have been in love with her music since the age of five.

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describes the story of my now. Excellently shot. He used the same director as the Animal Collective- My Girls video.

Check out my people, my fam at www.106kmel.com

So a couple of years back, Remy Ma was rumored to have a lesbian lover. Is That u NICKI????

Wowzers.... anyway I like the Nicki Minaj's version of Warning... Not better than the original though

shout out to::http://thecreolecorner.wordpress.com/2009/12/08/nicki-is-that-you/

She makes a lot of sense for a young woman thats 18. I feel her point HIGHKEY.

I have loved her since high school... She inspire my punk rock faze of dress. i might go back to that.
Supposedly Rih Rih ganked her steezzzz....

I dont know, she is the bizz though. no homo

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I found this hilarious... ROTFLMAO....

i have been home for 6 months. Sometimes i wish i would have stayed in the bay, but i feel as if God brought me back to Inglewood for a reason. I dont know what that reason is. My female friends have grown distant. They have lives themselves, i've been gone for four years. I understand. All my friends have seem male. LOVE DUDES, but i do want female friends too. I am outta the LOOP. I don't even really have the "LA State of Mind" anymore. i live in a shell in Inglewood,and most of the time i kick it with an 84 yr old woman named Ruby Mae. She is cool and all, i just want to socialize with people my age. I know that i should be getting my life together, like everyone else is doing, and i shouldn't be even concern with this, until i'm settled, but you have to get out and play once and a while. when i DO go out, i have a ton of fun. thats not the problem. i am fine with being alone, but loneliness is awkward. I dont really know what i should do. idol minds are the devil's workshop, and i dont want to be associated with him.

This song goes so hard!

People down play r&b soul soooooo muchhhhhh. I think I fell in love with this song

After i ended my relationship of six years with my ex, BlackFace, almost a year ago, i have a new perspective of life. It ended on bad terms you can say. I've been a rebuilding state of mind. I have accomplished a lot in this year. I have graduated from Santa Clara, moved back home and am currently in the process of figuring out what i want to do with my life. During this whole time i have being focusing on me and my career but not what has been making me happy. I have dating, but i don't continue because i start to think i am psycho........ I DONT WANT TO BE THAT PSYCHO BLACK BITCH....... i cant be that. It stresses me out. With me not having a steady job i have to figure out what makes me happy. Life is about having fun. Soooooooooo im going to fix this. I have to relaxxxxxxxxxx. Relationships come with time . I dont want a relationship just to start right away. You should be friends in your relationship. I want to have a friend and a lover in my next relationship. im crawling ....

i love the cleveland show

i hate that people cursed khloe as the fugly sister, but she is the smartest out of those hoes. in the last few she had really stepped her shit up. not only did she lose 25 pounds, but she is married to lamar odom. with kourtney preggers, kim is out of the spotlight, how salty do u feel kim???

i wish them the best. hopefully they'll make it.

I have broken my silence. I dont have kids but .....I would SOCK my child in the face if i caught him doing this

NICKI MINAJ IS FOR 18 AND ORDER PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

shout out to http://sofurious.com for the lin

maxwell is soo whimsical... he can get it ....

Maxwell - Pretty Wings from Pop Along Kids on Vimeo.

It seems as if it was yesterday i met you at sbhs. You were a wonderful person and a wonderful dancer. You are now dancing in heaven among the angels in heaven.

" they say the good die young, i must be on my way" - Dolla

I will be graduating in less than a month from SCU. Although i am SOOOO HAPPY to GET the HELL up out of Santa Clara, i will miss the friends that i have made up here. I have learned so much from being in the Bay Area: from the business stand point (radio, film and promo), emotionally coming in to myself, scholastically and politically. Even though i come from the best city on the Left Coast, and maybe even the world, the Bay Area i called home for 4 years. I am saddened by the fact that i am leaving, but i will always cherish the fact that the people whom i call friends, acquaintances, strangers and even enemies i have learned from. I wish that i could stay longer, and i quite possibly could because i still have time, but these are just my thoughts at the time.

soooooooooo i produced this for school last quarter and i never put it up..

on hold with southwest and ditching class is great> i havent blogged in a while due to senior shit. but peep this vid

Melanie Fiona - Give It To Me Right

Its Saturday. Its beautiful outside. I feel like some relaje is much needed.

this song is so mellow. describes how SCU is at the moment, as i type this outside in the rose garden.

I love 311- yeah, i know right.

311 is the police code for public nudity in Omaha, NE

I have been home for the past week and discovered that i missed it. I had a great time. I will be back in 3 weeks.

This is true, but i disagree about Kanye...

Good Read...

http://www.xxlmag.com/online/?p=40484

the graphics and efx in this video are truely amazing.

plus i love this song. yeah, yeah, i have a mushy side.

sometimes i wonder about the things to come in the near future. In June i will be graduating, and with the economy acting crazy, i don't know what i and the other millions of college graduates are gonna due for work. I have applied for many jobs but only heard back from one... eep! how do you guys feel about that? here is some youtube respects... march 9 has passed so here is biggie's last interview....

ice cream paint job ... big song in texas....

oh how i love the south...

Keri Hilson calls out SASHA FIERCE and Ci Ci? This is out of left field.... Its The TRUTH though. and Hot ass remix

I am mad cuz i STILLL cant find my ipod.

i dunno what to think of this... i have the most confused look on my face. i don't know whether to love it , or to throw my chuck at him.....

reflecting on my 22 years of life i have figured out romantic relationships aren't what they are cracked up to be.
nothing is ever perfected. prince charming for me, probably will never exist. ok, thats an exaggeration. he won't exist for right now. i have come to terms with that. i'm young. i don't need to be tied down, but if it were to approach me i won't turn it down. from being in my five and a half year relationship, i have realized that. it is the time in my life to be selfish. being in that relationship i felt as if we just went through the motions when i entered my first year of college, which is why we were so off and on. i put so much in to a relationship and he didn't put back as much as i did. i'm not saying by no meansi am an angel, but the red flag should have flew when he keep going to vegas, when a flight to vegas and a flight to the bay cost the same. the drive is an extra hour.he visited in my jr. year...twice. i dont get mad at the dude now. i don't even sit and ponder about him anymore. i'm not mad at him. im doing me, which i should have done first. from this i have learned my flaws. a friend said that i would never be brave enough to post my flaws. i know im a compulsive worry warden, i am too nice. i have trust issues. i have abandonment issues.i cuss like a sailor. procrastination. i am literal to the maxxxxx.i compare very thing to everything. the most important thing is that i accept my flaws and the moment i stopped. i know my areas of improvement. i highly doubt he will past his flaws.....

every year, i always say that i would blog, but i never seem to have the time to. after much pondering i decided to make time. its a good excuse to procrastinate in my senior year at SCU, and probably a good stress reliever, and a way for me to write what i am thinking, since i hate keeping diaries and journals. it can possibly help me what i am going through .

for the past few months i have learned that life is what you make it, and that you should not make people matter soo much in your lives that you lose yourself. i did that. i ended up shit creek without a paddle at the end of a five year relationship. i am now trying to find my way to a better me.

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